I am a chronic insomniac but fortunately neither do I need hours of sleep. Six is like a blessing from the Gods. The thought of requiring an alarm to wake me up would be the equivalent to a happy birthday. Last week my friend, who knows my insomniac energies well wrote to me from New […]


I was talking to a young woman today about whether she still needed to be on historic medications which began before our engagement. I find her fragile. But, more importantly she is absurdly wise and competent. Her reply astonished me with its beauty. ‘I suffer with incapable sadness.’ Yes, I thought, but silently. I didn’t […]

Nature and Nurture.

I’ve just been staying on a Somerset estate which has the largest herd of British White cattle in the world. Yesterday, they came right up to our window, a field full of nursing mothers and their spring born calves. While these cattle are distinguished by their white coats and the fact that they do not […]


How to endure the pain of the quickening of the light? I saw the first buds of conkers on the horse chestnut trees in Regent’s Park today and my heart sank. A Day (I’ll Tell You How The Sun Rose) by Emily Dickinson I’ll tell you how the Sun rose – A Ribbon at a […]


“A green thought in a green shade”

Laurence Sterne offers me a definition of therapy.

I was having an existential conversation with a ‘patient’/person this morning beckoning them down crossroads, cul de sacs, and non sequiturs until he commented that along with Sterne, ‘We progress as we digress.’ Sterne was referring to Tristram Shandy, but I cannot think of a better definition of the therapeutic process, at least ongoing in […]

Anna Karenina and the genius of Tolstoy

Anna Karenina is blowing my mind away. The second reading is even more inspiring than the first. Tolstoy’s analysis of the human mind, the conflicts of being human, of being in relationship with oneself and another exceeds any psychological theories of Mind and Relationship I have encountered. The suffering terrors and joy of being human.